If i could make heaven wait

As i am writing this,thoughts come to my mind of things that happened this last week.Sunday 10.02.2008 at 19.05 is a day that will forever have a sad and dark memory for a lot of people.It makes you think a bit more about life as well as you're dealing with a lot of anger and disbelieve.I thought i saw a lot of things in life already and thought that nothing could really shock me anymore.But once again i was wrong, and this time no matter how big you are or brave, bold no one will think of it as well that's life. Since the time i have heard the news i have been walking around with a knot in my stomach . How come there are people who pull out shitty things in life regardless of what other people think get away with it and a yet a young an innocent child gets taken away from her loving parents. Where's the justice in life? what can you do to prevent it and why are there still "doctors" who still can malpractice their job with such ignorance. Makes me want to ask the s.o.b if it was realy an innocent thing and that it was nothing. How can you say such stupid things when a little baby, who hasn't recover yet and still in weak condition pass by as,it will go over. Thinking about this matter makes my blood boil because of the doctor's incompetence a little child has been taken from our midst. Some people might wonder why it affects me so much to the point that i get cranky and all. The thing is both parents kinda consider me as their brother and even call me so. And there is something that i hate that much in life is to see people that i care about suffer. If a friend get threatened you can always protect them and look out for them, if they are in financial need you can aid them by giving financial support, you can give them advice or lend an listening ear when they need it. But what can you do when something like this happens, exactly .... nothing. So there i am someone who always tries to look at things positively and trying to be someone who they can pull themselves up to. But at times like these even i am at a total loss and the worst thing is i can't even hide it. Instead i get cranky at people who are close to me and on the other hand trying to maintain to people and all at work while i am trying my best to not ask myself why all the time. It gets worst when i see some girls and boys of the younger generation acting in a way that makes me angry. Laughing and actin like some idiots and total disrespect while the baby lies in the room besides. The day of the funeral was maybe even worse it was more like people came to be seen instead of paying their last respect. How you can show up dressed up like a freakin fashion show just to be seen by the sight of it my hands start to itch badly. But it is a good thing that i kept in my mind that we came to show our last respect and we came for her and not for the idiots. As much as i felt like not going to the funeral,the relieved i was that i did if it was only to be there for them. With this blog i have ventilated all the feelings i have and at the same time have to let it go how hard it may be hard but the most important thing is that she finds her peace. I would like to offer my sincere apologies to anyone of you if i was harsh or anything this last week. Furthermore i would like to thank everyone who the support they have given me throughout the week i appreciate it.Everybody deals with it her or his way and for me in times like these i rather be alone with it to process it.This blog entry is dedicated in loving memory of :

Naima Thida Sinath 11.10.2006 -10.02.2008

sweet dreams lil Angel of ours may you rest in peace, Poe sralang if only i could make heaven wait .... I would have regardless the costs.

Comments

[Norhayati]

my prayers for the lil angel...

[RayBlaze]

Thank you my dear friend....

[Siti]

My humble prayers for her and may God bless her soul.....

[RayBlaze]

Thanx Siti, i hope she is in a good place now and may her soul rest in peace ....