To Rise & Fall

As real as the morning sun rise, shining in my face, giving warmth to my mind, body, and soul...show signs of a brand new day...

Staring in the mirrow I looked into my own eyes, gazing into the deep trembling soul of mines and wonders... Feeling deeply as one, how does hearts connects, the way that two physical forms become 1...Humans manner??Have you ever wonder why there must be love ??Have you ever thought that why is everything seems to be so complicated sometimes???Well its just us!!Humans that makes it so complicated...Agreed??

For better or for worst? I wish I could tell, defining the good and bad is such subjective manner of humans, but the truth is, who am I to tell, who are you to tell either? Would you consider something good, something chaste, an intention to improve, to enhance, to complete a life... but in order to achieve that intention, sacrifices made, rules bent, spiritual beliefs overlined... and at the end, the sun shine still rays it's warmth deep into your heart, your mind, your body and your soul... Who am I to tell,who are you to judge?

All my life I've lived it like I've been told to live it that way even before I was born...familiar faces, twisted and complicated situations...As if I expected every move I've made, all the consequences I foresee, the ups and downs were as if they were planted in...But why didn't I see this coming? Why didn't I expect this? Where's the anticipation of this "pre-read" handbook of life which I thought I knew it all, like as if I have it all at the back of my hand?

Maybe this is what they call, the unexpected truth... the blind turn you find yourself twisting into...Like the loophole in a system you overlooked at... the one time of your life you missed by a glance... but with all this shortcoming, why does it still feel so right? Who am I to tell, who are you to Judge?

This is it, my life have turned into an unexpected turn, for better or for worst? Who am I to tell, who are you to Judge? There's a saying, bad things come in three. It all happened when I end up something I once cherished so much, and then I fuck up in my career, and lastly the one thing I shouldn't screw in my life, I broke myself down in pieces... emotional let down, rock bottomed... capsized. But where's the good or bad in that? Who am I to tell, who are you to Judge?

I've been doing things I never expected I'd be doing... I hardly recognise myself those days when I look myself up in the mirror. Am I changing? Evolving? What's the word? Blending? Passing through time without noticing the differences I've made... I'm nowhere near to find out. I'm nowhere close to conclude... I'm nowhere but who am I to tell, who are you to Judge?

I wish I was given a sign, I wish I could tell, I wish I could judge...I wish I could..I wish I knew... But for some reason, at the back of my mind, I feel it... a feeling I've once lost to a nameless soul whom I've deleted out of the memories of my brain cells...It's the same infactuation perhaps, or is it just plain hints...On top of it all...I know for sure, that I'm falling....